Just saw the fb post that was posted in the morning, yesterday, abt the website thingy...If there are some who agreed to allow the launching of that website, thinking that I would do something about it like about the misunderstanding of His Words etc. (I may have misread the atmosphere), there's a limit to what I can do, and REALLY, I'm not physically strong, like an average person, I'm even weaker than them. Do you know how much my health suffered and went downhill throughout the recent episode, the malignment etc.? My heart almost stopped beating at one point in time. Literally. And I still remembered why and where it happened. And it was different from the other time when it happened in high school. In high school, it can be considered partly my fault, I was trying hard to study, and balancing my CCA role and responsibilities and studies, and the long hours wore me out. Seriously...-_-||| And I still haven't fully recovered, my health.

Isn't it easier to manage it at the top level of management instead of some nobody for this kind of matters? And it was already clear: the cons were listed out, it's not as though . There's ample reasons to reject the launching. And most of us use the internet very often, what if a kid stumbled accidently onto the website and think that it was normal, alright thing? Like the porno sites. Take a look at the cases where underage engages in such acts, thinking that it was alright, i.e. He loves me, I love him, so it's alright. But is it really alright? There are reports where those kids who engaged in sexual intercourse, the girls, felt extremely ashamed, and some were on the verge of self-mutilation. Oh and also the self-mutilation issue: "it's alright. fun and reduces the extreme emotional pain that we are feeling. and also many does that. it's a norm, an in-thing" mindset. Argh!

I had a close shave with self-mutilation in a sense, differently from others. I was thinking about how my class were extremely demoralized over something, and some of them had cuts on their wrists, it was their way of releasing their anguish, disappointment, their way of coping, BUT negatively, there are more healthier ways to cope with the emotional pain. And then I thought about my own troubles. And then finally, I snapped. I just took whatever I had in my hand and started rubbing it with my wrist. All without conscious thinking.Thank God it was just a mechanical pencil. Dangerous. Just thinking of it can result in carrying out the deed. And the impact of familiarity, that is, seeing something very often, eh how to put it in a nicer way (i'm quite blunt)..., such as watching a certain tv ad for a number of times, and then when one see the advertised product, one buys the product when one doesn't really need the product. It's the same concept.