Once, before I thought that when I finally come out, and show myself, when the world (doesn't matter the percentage) know me and found me, I would go and hide myself again in whichever I was hiding with--a 'cold mask', or in whatever He provides*, lest I get too overwhelmed with the attention and whatever effects it brings, e.g. in 仙剑奇侠传里的灵儿治了那村民的毒时or the jealousy and envy.
Apparently, it's not up to me. ^^ And gladly so to leave it to Him.^^
*e.g. my pimples condition, my weight, the type of clothes/apparels, even my phobias i.e. stage fright--sometimes it's manageable sometimes it's out of control so the performances or presentations at times is at my best of ability--like today it's ard 80%, at times it's only like 30% of my abilities (though that's also not within my control)...that's why things happen for reasons which at times we do not understand i.e. "why me"...
WWF
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Lazy to retype it...
"Elayne Teng
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"哦主啊, 求你吸引我
带我进入你圣洁居所,
使我能更加像你,
带着耶稣的香气"
---《每日的祷告》浇灌的院子"
Your words gives me the strength to carry on
Your promises stand forever oh Lord
You are my rock of salvation.
My feet grows weary but my heart is lifted up by you, Lamb of God, Jesus Christ.
Juz realized the above poem seemed familiar...psalms -_-|||...I wrote it without referring to anything...purely based on the 感动 that I felt
kept on coming back to this...-_-|||...probably due to the assignment too...
but ^^
this poem 伤痕http://icyelimworld.wordpress.com/2010/12/27/%e4%bc%a4%e7%97%95/
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this poem 霜 http://icyelimworld.wordpress.com/2012/04/25/%e9%9c%9c/
actually most poems on my wordpress show it...and if one read it according to the dates posted, one can tell when things got hard for me: just by trying seeing other ppl's hurt and trying to help but my own injuries which I sustained, whether in the past or during that time, no one sees...
eh, not really 'trying to help' for at times it's really out of one's ability, it's more of 'trying to be understanding'.
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